P is for: Purgatory
"It is by going down into the abyss that we recover the treasures of life. Where you stumble, therein lies your treasure."
Pur·ga·to·ry
Noun:
A place or state of suffering inhabited by the souls of sinners who are expiating their sins before going to heaven.
“All her sins were forgiven and she would not need to go to Purgatory”
A place or state of temporary suffering or misery.
Adjective:
Having the quality of cleansing or purifying.
Where we left off last was a punch to the gut, there’s really no other way to put it. That’s how I intended it to be in writing, because that’s how it was.
If you’re newly joining, in the last essay I wrote, I outlined all the ways in which I cleaned up my life. All areas and places of focus that I could hone in on to reestablish normalcy in hopes of cleaning house in every aspect I could think of.
I also very poignantly outlined the hurricane of negatives. Not normal by any means, most of them taking out huge buckets of time in my life. There’d be time allotted for them to happen, be stunned in the wake, grieve their existence, mourn, do what’s necessary and then figure it out.
Months and months, turning into a full few years playing pinball. Me, being that pinball.
Categorically, all of the nice cleaning up that I did, I suppose, was in response to those heavy hits. As if to say, okay– I must not have cleaned up the right area, where did I miss.
Where, exactly, is the lesson.